This week I was kinda losing it. I had hurt my back on Sunday so I couldn’t do the things I normally do every day. I couldn’t go for a walk/run, clean the house, or really do much at all. I tried to just relax and rest my back as much as possible (while still having to take take of an active almost-2-year-old. But I found myself getting depressed. Knowing that I’m prone to vicious downward spirals, I called my husband and sheepishly asked for help. OK, technically I didn’t ask. I beat around the bush a little until he finally offered to stay home from a meeting so that I could go out and have the night off.
I should have just flat-out asked for help from him.
But I felt bad taking him away from his meeting and at the same time ditching him with the kids for an evening after he’s been at work all day. Knowing I needed it though, I let him offer, and when he got home from work, I left.
It felt so good to get out of the house. I needed the time alone, away from jabbering kids, needy requests, “watch me mom”s, and whining. I came back feeling much more refreshed and ready to be the mom again.
It was kind of a rough week for me.
I’ve been tired and a little down. That scares me because for a long time I was exhausted and depressed and could barely function, and I do not want to go back to that place. Lately I’ve been doing great and feeling fantastic and I want that to continue. So I’m trying to do my best to stave off a downward spiral, and if I have to ask for help to do that (or beat around the bush until someone offers), then that’s what I’ll have to do. Though next time I’ll try just asking.
What do you do when you feel a spiral, or a funk or a bad week coming on?
What do you do to stave that off? I’m trying to take it easy and not be so hard on myself so I can relax and let my back heal, but I feel like that’s making my mood worse. I need to get up and get moving. Can you relate? And it doesn’t help that my CPAP machine broke and I’m waiting to get it fixed. With the “mild” sleep apnea I have, I wake up 20-30 times an hour and so I’m just tired. You absolutely cannot function well without proper sleep. Hopefully all of this will get better soon and things will go back to being fantastic. Until the next thing goes wrong. But that’s life for ya. In the meantime, I’m at least grateful that I have people I can ask for help.